By now, you may have heard that I lost our fifth baby. The experience has been a long and emotionally exhausting one and I’m finally just rounding the corner on seeing the light again. I feel embarrassed, among other things, that my loss affected me so deeply when I have so much already and when there are others who have lost so much more.
But in the end, I have learned that there is no grand scale for loss. No one is keeping track of who has lost more and who has the right to grieve a “greater” loss. Loss is loss and it doesn’t change anything to deny yourself the right to grieve.
I learned a lot with my miscarriage, including that lesson, and there are still a lot of ways this loss took me by surprise: